Nervous...worried...ugh i hate feelin this way

Lets start with me. yesterday my eye was sore. the eye lid was sore to touch, not sure why. I showed al before the end of the day and he said it looked bruised. well i wake up this morning and it is a huge bruise and swollen. I was scared like WTH. i look under the lid and ther eis a huge lump. as the day went on the sweeling didn't leave. i looked again and it had turned white. so i am guessing it is a sty. i probably need some antibacterial eye gel. but my eye looks horrible and it freaked me right the heck out.

Hunter has an appoitnment with the neaurologist tomorrow. its in saskatoon which is a two hour drive and lets say the weather has not been too nice at all. I am scared we won't be able to get there. we have been waiting for this appointment since april, so we have to go. If it would just stop snowing for ONE day...just one day. we have had more snow so far in jan then the last few years all together. it is nuts. the roads in town are crazy. lets hope the highways aren't as bad. I am not looking forward to the drive, so keep us in your prayers.

Its als birthday on wednesday. he is going to be 32. it is hard to believe imet him when he was 23. where has the time gone. i am at a loss ass what to get him. it is between these things, a new stereo for the bedroom (he listens to it when he goes to bed) a gold membership for the xbox he got for christmas that he will be buying himself if i dont get it, a gaming chair. Or he has a long list of video games and movies that i don't really want to get for him anyway. What would you choose?
I am also having a hard time deciding on something else. I want a treadmill, there is a good one on sale, but i have a feeling it will go on sale more, but then i chance not getting one. It is by far not top of the line but it would work. Or a sliegh bed that we need. We have been sleeping on the floor for far to long and it is wrecking our boxspring. they are both about the same price and i don't know which to choose. Man i am horrible at choosing.
I think all the increased stress is caused by the fall out with the friend i talked about in the previous post. i just wish things didn't end the way they did, but i think it would be a waste of my time to apologize. I don't even know what i would be apologizing for.
I will update about the doc appointment(if we make it) tomorrow.

It's alot of work to be angry!!!

Wow things are TENSE in my parts of the woods! I got into it with a friend of mine the other day. She seriously takes things for granted. She has this amazing ability to make people fear her but when anything is brought up she has this amazing ability to turn it around and make you look and feel like the bad guy. Not sure how much sense that actually makes. I am at a loss as what to do. I have been there whenever she has needed me. she has four children, had the fourth in july. I helped take care of her kids i bought things for her she didn't have when she ahd the baby. I was there at 9 at night when she needed my therometer cause she thought the baby felt a little warm. I was there when she needed me when her husband left because they weren't getting along. I give her a great rate at daycare for her son, who comes at least three full days a week even though she is a stay at home money and they can hardly afford food. I thought i was being a good friend. I honestly thought i was. she informs me it is too bad i turned out to be a crappy friend! I guess because i don't agree to everything she has to say, i am not a good friend.
Here's the issue. I gave notice well over a month ago, and told her before i gave notice that daycare fees were going up. Min wage is going up, food is going up, the general cost of living is going up. Her daily fee went up a whole five dollars a day. Keep in mind i sent this notice out 30+ days before it was to happen. well she informs me on the fifth of this month she can't afford daycare so he won't be coming again. In my contract it states thirty days notice must be given. I was fine with it...its ok if she can't afford it, but i expect respect, the same as i gave respect to her. So i brought up my concerns, that i wasn't upset but i felt disrespected. Of course i am wrong and she isn't disrespectful. so a whole huge arguement ensued and it all boiled down to she is an awesome friend, i am a crappy friend who needs to get off my high horse. It would all be alright but this girl is my best friends sil. I will be running into her, i will hear things about her, she will always be there. and it will be hard. goodness its alot of work i don't really have the time or the energy to do.
What do i do. do i write her a letter saying i am sorry, do i leave it and walk the other way. i am lost. I do want to apologize, but i know she won't see it as an apology so much as a gravel. She is a person it is VERY hard to be friends with. I am ok with not being her friend, but i don't want it to be horrible, tense and bitter everytime we see each other. I guess i want the parting terms to be on a different level...so ya any advice?