OMG the pain

After not having a regular period since april of 2008 i have had two in a row. VERY wierd. anyway i had one on dec 26th, wasn't to bad and i started again on friday, so not a long cycle but i hope my body is working itself out and i can be regular and finaly finally after 6.5 LONG years of trying to get pregnant i finally can. heres to hoping anyway
anyway i am in SOOOO much pain this time around, the cramps are unrealy OWIE!!!! I honestly don't miss it but iam very thankful for it.
I am still stressed out nicredibly everything shitty seems to happen at once and i have a VERY hard time dealing. yesterday was one of the worst days i have had in a long time. for no particular reason, jsut because to much is happening to fast. i wish it was easier for me to let things go, i dont know why i hold on to things . i feel everything is my fault,, and i should do something to make it better, and i stress and stress tell i give in and usaully it just bites me in the ass anyway.
Well short and sweet...lol. heres to hoping my best friend has her baby this week, holding a teeny baby would make everything fade away:D
tell next time....